Strong, But Sad.
If you’ve been following along with my story, you know that 2018 wouldn’t be complete without one more trauma. I’m honestly not ready to talk about it just yet, but I made a playlist to help me cope. This playlist is romantically-orientated but I’ve found that sadness is sadness, and you need to share those emotions with those who have been there before. Music is a powerful medium in that way. It’s okay to be sad. You can be strong at the same time. I’m going through it right now.
For the past few years, (for the most part) I’ve been making monthly playlists, and this sums up my November quite succinctly. It’s been really cathartic to look back on years before and pinpoint exactly where I was at a poignant moment in a song. For example, I recall so vividly the vibrations of a jet engine and the cold feeling of the small glass porthole on my cheek every time I listen to Chelsea Wolfe’s Flatlands, especially the line, “I need your arms, wrapped hard around me.” I also remember laughing and sobbing to myself in the terminal at YYC while listen to The Beachboys’ Wouldn’t It Be Nice. Sometimes, I don’t know why I torture myself by allowing myself to feel those emotions again and again but, in a way, it helps to know that I made it through.
Hopefully these songs will help you as much as they helped me. As always, I’m looking for new tunes so if I left out some good ones, leave a comment below and I’ll check it out!
xo, e.m.